POSTED: Sunday, October 21, 2012 - 9:00pm
UPDATED: Sunday, October 21, 2012 - 9:04pm
NBC NATIONAL NEWS — An Atlanta woman, a former nun, is seeking to change the Roman Catholic Church, realizing that what she will get her excommunicated from the Church.
On Saturday Diane Dougherty is going to be ordained as a priest, not in the Catholic Church, but in an organization called The Association of Roman Catholic Women Priests.
It is an international organization that the Church condemns.
Dougherty wants to be part of changing the Church she loves, realizing and accepting the consequences of what the Church considers her defiance and disobedience.
She is just obeying God, she said Wednesday.
"God calls all of us, and if we happen to be a woman, there shouldn't be these structures that keep us from it," Dougherty says.
The Association of Roman Catholic Women Priests has ordained some 140 women as priests in its organization so far.
The campaign for women priests drew Pope Benedict's personal condemnation this past April.
"If God calls, you have to respond," Doughtery says, never more certain that her mission is divinely inspired and led. "So I've said I'm not leaving Catholicism, I'm just going to lead it in a different direction."
Dougherty plans to serve as priest to a community of believers in Atlanta that wants the church to change.
Atlanta Archbishop Wilton Gregory said in a statement this week to the AJC that the church cannot ordain women, "since among His 12 Apostles, Jesus Christ did not include any women in spite of His open association and friendship with women throughout His ministry."
"I'm saddened by the Archbishop and the notions he has that women cannot be priests," Dougherty says, "because it's Christ who gives the calling, and if Christ gives the calling and a woman has the calling, and they say we can't do this, then it's almost idolatry, because how do they know God would or God wouldn't?"
Dougherty is a reluctant rebel, almost in mourning, trying to maintain faith that this is the path she must take.
"This is like a psychological tear that they throw in front of you when they say, 'You're going to be excommunicated.' It's like you're put on an ice floe, and you're just washed away from the community. And it's very hurtful. If pain were described between number one and a ten, ten being the highest, the pain I feel is probably about a hundred. But I've decided, for the next generation and for all of the little girls...."
She talks of her baby grandniece and the Church that she wants her grandniece to love and serve as she grows up, convinced that "women will be priests within the next ten years."
Polls have shown that a slight majority of Catholics wants the church to allow for women priests, but all recognize it will be a matter possibly for the next Pope to consider, many years from now.